Bit of a diary post here.

I’ve shared here before, I think,

The creeping bits of dread that seep into my mind as most days begin,

Strangest thing, been happening for a lifetime it seems,

Anticipation of the day’s activities and demands fosters waves of anxiety, as I lie cozy under covers, defenses down, it routinely gets the upper hand,

And in these moments calibrating the energy of anticipation and expectation is critical …

Calibrating to what’s possible and necessary and reasonable,

Calibrating to my circumstances and responsibilities and capacities,

And then pausing and praying, for me prayer resets the soul and the mind to even,

And then listing and doing, one by one, do your best, that’s all we can ask.