Early Morning Overdrive

Early morning workdays, they seem to start like this most days. Overdrive. Zero to sixty in no time.

My mind goes from dreamy rest to racing thoughts, flashing across my mind’s eye.

List accelerating, things, tasks to-do’s adding to the bottom and the list gets long in a hurry. Quickly spiraling, my heart beat quickens, can’t be good to think this fast this quick.

In the pre-dawn darkness, I work to slow it down, the race into the day, the pace someone, no one is expecting, I take deep breaths, I scribble it all down, eyes blurred, unsure of how it all will go.

Forcing myself to slow, let it all flow through, the Prime Reminder, let love flow through, the Prime Mover, purpose, and take it as it comes, as the day is underway, workday, the way it begins many a day,

For me.

#halffullallgood

“Love Never Fails”

This Good Friday, I feel pretty far from the usual church ideas and rituals around celebrating this day.

For us Christians, today is one of the most important days of the year, when we remember the execution of Jesus of Nazareth.

The darkest day gives way to the brightest, a couple days following.

It feels distant to me this year, the rituals of the day. All the same, I’ll remember his suffering and death; I’ll remember his courage, and resolve.

And I’ll remember his love.

Universal Faith

Like a lot of believers, I’ve got a mixed bag of beliefs and experiences with faith.

I was raised in the Episcopal tradition, but then came of adult age and depth of faith more in the Jesuit-infused Catholic tradition.

I’ve attended church off and on my whole life, frequency influenced by those I’m close to. And since adolescence I’ve turned to faith both to express gratitude for things that go well, and to shepherd me through trying times. So my faith today is still rooted in Christianity, still rooted in my history and heritage. Evolved over time, still deep and fundamental to who, how I am.

About six years back I became and ordained minister in the Universal Life Church*. I took this step after being asked by a couple of close friends if I would officiate their wedding ceremony. I officiated as second wedding this weekend, for my brother-in-law and his (now) wife.

In both instances I have been humbled by the request to officiate, these two couples seeing something in me I’ve long felt a part of my particular person, a sense of the spiritual, a sense of the sacred.

Humbled, Blessed, those are the two words I would use to express my feelings about leading a wedding ceremony. I believe deeply in the soulfulness of that particular Nuptial moment, when two people make a life-time commitment to one another, a public declaration of what they want their life to be with the other.

Yep, Humbled and Blessed.

[*The Universal Life Church Monastery is a multi-religious interfaith ministry that has an online ordination program, which allows individuals to preside over weddings, baptisms, and funerals in the United States depending on state and county laws.]

Nuptials

My brother-in-law is getting married today, a joyous celebration in store.

Delighted that he and his lady have decided to take the next step in their relationship.

They’re a solid couple already. Inspired that they want to take the next step in commitment, in marriage.

Does it matter?

I think it does. I think it can. It declares to the world your intent one to the other, it states your commitment to that singular person, to that relationship,

It also declares the value you put in the other person, and the permanece you seek with them.

Nuptial celebration, joy, bliss, don’t miss the opportunity, take the chance, jump in whole heartedly,

WHOLE HEARTED.

A thousand years of happiness to Jon and Sokcon, GOD BLESS !!!

Awash

I can’t really explain it very well. I feel like there’s a LOT going on…

That in some (many?) cases I have to let things fall away…

And sometimes in quite messy form, unfortunately,

And yet I think I’m keeping the main priorities squared away, plates in the air,

And then I wake up, mind spooling up quickly like a turbine,

And I’m awash with anxiety,

In the dark,

At 2 am.

Just saying, just sharing,

Because that’s my way.

And ever more I will go forward,

With the downs and the ups,

The Good and the not so good,

Awash unexpectedly,

But forward all the same.

Come, join me~~~

Flow State

In many facets of life, find the flow state,

Find harmony,

Find peace.

Don’t need many words, works to get there,

And when you do,

Bliss,

Not sure how, not sure the definition,

Especially as a parent, especially as a single parent,

How to find that groove, flow,

But when you do, even just a glimpse,

Moves you forward, aware, appreciative, glad,

In that space, mindset, BLISS.