Friday night, front end of the three-day holiday weekend.
Everybody ready for bed by eight in the evening, relaxing, screens fired up, and kids winding down.
Room lighting just so, a fan blowing gently behind me, easy breeze, hum, glow from the screen on the wall delivering food network fun, light, soft-brain goodness. What’s on? “Diners, Drive-In’s, and Dives.”
That’s about it.
Brain slowing, blood pressure easing up, sleep soon on the way. And up ahead? Well, nothing but home time and family time for the weekend.
Not new vitamin supplements; rather, each a name that’s been given to one of the three wild fires currently burning in the San Francisco Bay Area.
In Santa Clara County (south bay). In Sonoma (and neighboring) County (north bay). In Santa Cruz County (further south bay).
Hill communities. Suburban communities on the fringe.
Already Pandemic Life. Already Distance Learning for our children. Already Work-From-Home for many; or working under additional constraints “on-site.” And of course, the Essential Workers grinding it out in even more extreme ways often.
The physical toll. The mental toll. The emotional toll. Those last two are different. The mental is adjusting your practices, routines, expertise to cope and hopefully thrive in the new set-ups. The emotional is the ups and downs along the way.
Hopefully we’re getting to more ups. Hopefully the downs aren’t as deep.
Simple food, simple joy comfort food, comfort, full stop.
Easy to make, made with love, for the taste, for those who will taste, it, tasty treat, simple, good.
Rice cooker steams, warms the kitchen. The crackle as the frying pan fries, little meaty cubes, sizzle sizzle sizzle; something like bacon, tho’ not as much grease, but much the same salty, savory taste.
Mix ‘em up, nice and hot, stir it up, bowl after bowl, plate after plate, delicious it’s true, delicious, for you.
Simple, soothing, in your head, on the spoon, more than just food, joy, comfort, good.
Learning can be very challenging. VERY CHALLENGING.
Sometimes you find yourself in the mud, the thick, and it sucks. You make repeated mistakes, same issues, and it’s confounding, really…troubleshooting, reviewing your process, trying to understand why the errors are happening.
It can feel like a smack down. A SMACK DOWN.
It’s abrupt; it gives one pause. It strikes at self-confidence, belief in one’s own thinking and awareness, and capabilities too.
The way forward?
Deep breaths. DEEP BREATHS. A few seconds pause; maybe even a few minutes. Reset. RESET.
You may even find when you climb out of the mire, you may even discover that things aren’t exactly as you perceived them. Maybe other factors were at play. Maybe it wasn’t even entirely your fault.
WHEW. And if it was entirely your fault? Same process, of course. And WHEW anyway.
This idea for me, “do more good” translates to “post daily.” Get the good out there. Whatever you got. Share it.
Sometimes it’s thin, and just a “blog like a tweet”…but the last four months of 2019 laid the groundwork for a new and productive writing habit into the new year.
This upside, a nice pick-me-up when I consider the tasks, projects, goals still on the list, looking at me with skeptical eye. The contrast typical of life I suppose, always things done and more to do as well.