Push, Pause

Know when to, not easy, When to push forward, maybe rapid-fire, may hell-bent, a little momentum or none, and away you go, one thing after another, PUSH, Then step back, pause, stop altogether, one deep breath and then another, take a minute, the moment, maybe more to reset, PAUSE, Need to be good at both …

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Poise

Such a blessing, poise. Especially in moments of high stress, and consequence. Would that I could muster poise more regularly, predictably, Inside I feel I’m battling to find it, elusive, and if do, then the next breath, how to maintain, hold steady? Grace under pressure I seek, earn for, perhaps that’s the key, not poise, …

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Heaviness

Living in heaviness, a reality I still can’t quite get used to. Some ten years running now, how can it still be this way, Anyway, always mostly there, weighted vest, metaphor, more than real feeling, for sure, Some fifty years anxious, worried, willing to keep going, not always everyday, but most days, lurking, present, Presently …

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