What motivates you? Great question, what motivates, let’s peel the cover off that one for a minute, Creativity is certainly a motivator - like writing! - but also other forms of creative expression, tho’ I don’t actively pursue them much beyond writing, As a corollary, I feel motivated by accomplishing small projects when I’m duly …
Month: August 2025
RIP, Mom
Kathleen Ann Ludlum 12 Feb.1938 - 18 Aug. 2025 Mama Lud. Born in San Jose. SJHS Class of ‘56. I recall asking about a little ceramic Bulldog in the house that was the SJHS mascot; fun irony that my kids will go to Lincoln, the arch-rival back in the day. And she didn’t go far; …
Dear Kids,
Another open bit to my kids, thoughts scribbled down for posterity, these of a different sort, not on responsibility and carrying your own weight, This on weight of a different kind, On coping with life and death, in particular, their Grammy, my mom, departed this earth two days ago, finally released from a body that …
From “Death & Dying”
Read this one today. Helped. “Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers but to be fearless in facing them. Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain but for the heart to conquer it. Let me not look for allies in life’s battlefield but to my own strength. Let me not …
Nearly Gone
So hard to watch someone fade away, as you’re reading this she may already be so, departed, dead, passed, My mother, 87 years on this Earth, 29 years as a disabled stroke survivor, Watching her depart, each labored breath, quiet struggle, “It’s ok to go, mom”, my best response, mantra, Just go, mom, we all …
Love The 408
What do you love about where you live? Love the 408, gotta say, 58 years and counting, mostly nearly completely lived here, South Bay, some call it, but more exact, I’ve been on the border of Santa Clara and San Jose just of 39 years now, Such a sweet spot to me, mix of old …
Dear Kids,
Open letter to my kids, I know I’ve not been the most strict at parenting, but it’s time tighten things up, time to step up, time to pull your own weight. More to follow.
Saturday Stream
Stream of conscious after a heavy week, Tendinitis, hospice, fading life, forklifts, pallet-jacks, pallets, parts, boxes, anxiety, Epilepsy, new school year, Spam, bacon, rice, ESPP, summits, starvation, struggle, confidence, judgement, priorities, CCCP, Palestine, Sudan, Congo, Ukraine, shortages, more sleep, gin, more reading, loft beds, donations, Alzheimer’s, maturity, healthy diet, black tea, new coffee machine, dry …
No Time For Inertia
No time for inertia, no time to wait, waste, Not for a minute more, more than you can take, Take cold comfort in the fact that most face the same, Time would still be nice, a little more, maybe a lot, But not now, no no, not now, no time to wait.
Waiting for Death: A Brief Meditation
A brief meditation, waiting for death, My mom is dying, life slowly draining out of her, spark mostly gone, bed-ridden, helpless, Body failed, softly broken up nearly everywhere, Words now gone too, waiting for death, Be at peace mom, go when you’re ready, I just keep saying that, “Go when you’re ready”, and in peace.
1/2_Full, All GOOD 