A brief meditation, waiting for death, My mom is dying, life slowly draining out of her, spark mostly gone, bed-ridden, helpless, Body failed, softly broken up nearly everywhere, Words now gone too, waiting for death, Be at peace mom, go when you’re ready, I just keep saying that, “Go when you’re ready”, and in peace.
Month: August 2025
Pursed Moments
Pursed lips, pursed moments, With increased frequency, my mini-way of pausing and coping, Over and over it happens with my kids, they have some remark I have no reply for, no doubt my own patience wearing thin, Thinly veiled virtue quite fragile, too fragile sometimes, So pursed lips my reply, like biting my tongue without …
Good Attitude
If you were going to open up a shop, what would you sell? If I was to open a shop, it’d be a small store front. It’d somewhat akin to Lucy Van Pelt’s Advice Desk. I would sell one thing, really: Good Attitude. Like Positive AI. Like Jocko Willink says, “…Even if the situation is …
Juxtapose: Rick & Jeff
Finding the space, the place, to compare two individuals very different on the outside, but oh so similar on the inside, At least I think so. Four years and 12 days old, Rick is to me. Rick Rubin. Jeff Ludlum. He doesn’t know me; I’ve definitely come to know him. One-of-kind approach to a creative …
Fading Light
What to do in the fading light but be grateful for what you can still see? Be grateful for what you can still remember, My mom is under hospice case, her health decidedly on the wane since a fall on Easter Monday, ironic given the holiday, marking, celebrating a new beginning in a faith journey, …
Watching Her Fade
My mom is dying, slowly, certainly, Is it weeks or days, not sure, but she’s on her way. Hospice activated a couple months back, interest in life on the ebb, permanent, now more waiting to depart, it seems, No more folding tissues, working the remote, no no, no more, Sat with her last night for …
495
It was 495 miles round trip on recent few days junket to the Central Coast with my kids, much needed time away. Out of our home metropolis, southbound as the highway, narrowed, and the traffic slowed, getting past commuters, land opened up, many many fields, growing this and that, strawberry, lettuce, artichoke, and on and …
Reminders: Five Days, Words, Day Five
Gratitude. The prime cornerstone, My ALPHA & OMEGA, Gratitude, for, My kids, My friends, from every era, My parents, My grandparents, My two ex-wives, My dear neighbors, The seven dogs I’ve lived with, The roof over my head, The food I have to eat, The clothes I have to wear, The safety I live in, …
Reminders: Five Days, Words, Day Four
Humor, cornerstone of daily life and sanity. There’s not a day goes by where I don’t chuckle to myself because of a circumstance I’ve experienced or mistake I’ve made. “…what the fuck, jeff how did that happen…” I say to myself on the daily. Humor is a superpower, and we all have it inside. Humor. …
Reminders: Five Days, Words, Day Three
Perseverance. The theme word for this post was going to be “parenting” … then I realized, a big part of parenting for me is perseverance (like other areas of my life), where it often seems the lessons and challenges and activities therein require fortitude, resilience, perseverance, at least for me, And so parenting, and work, …
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