A dark quiet house, it’s what I like. After everyone is ready for bed, and mostly screen off, and all the lights in the house mostly off… The door double checked, all locked up everything safe and sound, the dishwashing machine quietly Hulme, turn through the cycle, Now the dim light from the hallway, the …
Remembering Uncle Roger
Born seven years less one day before my dad, Uncle Roger was always a little larger than life for me. Born and raised in western New York, he lived in that area the vast majority of his long life. Juxtaposed to my dad’s life path — he moved west for college (Ohio), then further west …
Happy Birthday BHL
My family, particularly big on name initials. My dad, Bruce Howard Ludlum, born this day 1936. BHL. Gone seven years now. Damn. I miss him, and think about him, invoke his name and influence most every day. He taught me to shoot hoops; taught me how to throw a ball. He taught me how to …
Let It Go On Repeat
From the movie “Frozen”, such a great song, and message too… …and SO SO f*cking hard to apply in practice, in daily life, sometimes. I’ve shared before here in these posts some semblance of this chronic condition I have, this chronic anxiety, an early morning visit most every day. And I repeat mantras and prayers …
SF Scene: Yoga Mats & Sunday Mornings
Quite the scene, yoga mats along with their particular owners on weekend mornings. I’ve driven through San Francisco many times these last several months, in the some of the districts, not sure how it is everywhere… but in Cow Hollow, The Marina, again, and again I see the same, people in yoga pants, some carrying …
My Name Is Howard
What is your middle name? Does it carry any special meaning/significance? The prompt fits the moment, “What is your middle name?” Like my father before me, and his grandfather too, Howard is our middle name, Don’t know why, but that’s our name, And my son has the same middle name, three in a row, and …
Late Night Levi
Staying up with the man, my guy, in prep for an EEG Sleep Study in the morning, Five hours of sleep the protocol, how to stay up?! Basketball and Minecraft, freestyle grub, and walk to the park in the dark for more hoops, more Minecraft, a few videos… And lights out, Hoops, Grub, Fun, GOOD.
Aches & Pains
Getting older, passed over middle age now, aches & pains are more frequent. Ouch. But whatever, ya gotta keep going. Just, slower to start, move, react. And actually, the reaction still seems ok, but the body seems less inclined to respond in kind. Ugh. I know part of the struggle is my weight. Carrying around …
Sleep Is My Therapy
Sleep, O Dear Sleep! I love you so. Sleep is my therapy. Beaten up by the day, or better yet, endured and overcame, rallied, did the doing things, Longer day than expected or just so normal, whatever the circumstance, at the end of the day, Sleep makes it better, Sleep soothes my body, my soul, …
Ready Or Not
Ready or not, week underway, predicable somehow the unexplainable angst, anxiety, annoying to say the least, Reaching for approval from somewhere, anywhere? Any which way to find peace, relief, shed the angst, from where, from where? Origin unknown, destination clear, clear as day I find my way through the thicket, ready or not, here I …
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