Woke just before four in the morning, itchy. Suffered a bit, then put some lotion on. That didn’t help much; some; but still itchy. And then mind starts to muddle; then speeds up; and it’s the weekend going into a vacation week plus off work. And so I don’t care so much, too much, about …
Category: mental health
Inner Voice
Nearly constant, my inner voice, since I was a kid. But it’s not so inner. I find I talk to myself quite regularly, Self dialogue, commentary, guidance, narrative, chatter chatter chatter. I wonder sometimes, “Is this normal? Do other folks do the same?” Not sure. But that inner voice, my inner jeff, it keeps me …
Chatter
Listen to them fill in the final moments before sleep, Topics not touched on prior, squeeze every last this and that on any particular thing, A few more breathes of words to fill in the cracks after the lights have gone down, I mildly lament, a stubbornly resist, and then I let it run, them …
A Dad’s Way
Up early, do what you can. Tip-toe into the kids’ room, blow them a kiss, piggyback to the one on the cheek, hand the night before. Move the pile of clean laundry from one spot to the other; gotta fold that tonight. Sip cold brew, do a little work on your day off. Take solace …
Firm or Harsh?
I find myself periodically in this space. I’m wrangling to keep my kids on task during the crunch time of work/day evenings. We’re working to stay on schedule to meet a goal, in this case lights out in time for a good night’s sleep. As they seem to wander to and fro, distracted, my guiding …
Sing Song
I love music, and I L O V E this song. It’s one of my favorites, over the few decades since I first heard it. I learned the words long ago, and sing along pretty much whenever I listen to the tune. “A Pirate Looks At Forty” by Jimmy Buffett. It’s a great one. Many …
Pace
Pick it up, Slow down, Live by it, Die by it? Don’t let it kill you, Learn to master it, When to allow yourself to be swept up, When to let hurry by when too quick, It’s up to you, Pace.
Week-end Struggle
Weird to think, struggle on the weekend, Fun and games and care-free ways give way to toil and trouble, bubble bubble, As Sunday night settles in, angst and worry, aches and pains, imagined, real, pour in through the cracks and splits, Lava creeping, melting, molding all to worry, can’t control, overwhelmed, just what we don’t …
Early Morning Overdrive
Early morning workdays, they seem to start like this most days. Overdrive. Zero to sixty in no time. My mind goes from dreamy rest to racing thoughts, flashing across my mind’s eye. List accelerating, things, tasks to-do’s adding to the bottom and the list gets long in a hurry. Quickly spiraling, my heart beat quickens, …
Diner 2541
Sometimes it’s like my house is a diner; sometimes the dining table is like one at a diner. But the wait staff at this diner (me/dad) doesn’t do a great job of cleaning up between meals served. Crumbs on the table, and under; not swept in a while; place mats left out, askew. The Good …
1/2_Full, All GOOD 