I try not to roar, but sometimes I do. Not so much in anger, not really, More disbelief and frustration at the seeming lack of awareness my children have of what’s appropriate when, But then I remind myself that they are eleven, nine, and eight years old, And I push all my silly expectations aside …
Category: family
Fighting For Time
It seems I’m often fighting for time, At home, at work, with my kids. With myself, In the evening, daytime, middle of the night, Like right now, scribbling at 3:00am, awakened by thoughts about work, life, struggles, battles, Fleeting joy, this I know, fighting for time, not so good, slight of hand preferred, slight improvements …
Piled High
Emotions piled high, letting the weight settle, Ten days of go, to decision and loss and sadness and alone, Our last canine, remaining sister, her time to end, to heart stop, eternal sleep, house quiet, heavy. Ten days plus 556 days since the family changed, two households now, split, solo dad era established, Adjusted ok …
To the Mountains
Respite, long awaited, showing them another way, living a slower way, Beloved mountains, fresh air, sounds a wild, few street lights, a step out, away, away, What will the stars tell us, the trees, what will they say, how will we play? Stay my heart, my calm, be so, whisperers only in the night, and …
Remembering Grandma
Funny what comes to mind in the middle of the night, Remembering Grandma, my mom’s mom, Crossword puzzle doer, pie maker, diligent life-long partner, Tiny Italian from The Indian Territories of what became Oaklahoma, Middle of the night waker-upper, Person to write about at 1 AM… Miss you, Grandma.
Chatter
Listen to them fill in the final moments before sleep, Topics not touched on prior, squeeze every last this and that on any particular thing, A few more breathes of words to fill in the cracks after the lights have gone down, I mildly lament, a stubbornly resist, and then I let it run, them …
Roll On
Roll on, John C., Quiet champion, Endlessly generous, Salt of the Earth Guy, 300 / 800 Guy, Now Stockton Bowling Hall-of-Fame Guy too. Honored, humbled, thankful to witness the moment. Most all of the family there too. Shirley Temples for the kids crew too. GOOD.
Roll On
Roll on, John C., Quiet champion, Endlessly generous, Salt of the Earth Guy, 300 / 800 Guy, Now Stockton Bowling Hall-of-Fame Guy too. Honored, humbled, thankful to witness the moment. Most all of the family there too. Shirley Temples for the kids crew too. GOOD.
A Dad’s Way
Up early, do what you can. Tip-toe into the kids’ room, blow them a kiss, piggyback to the one on the cheek, hand the night before. Move the pile of clean laundry from one spot to the other; gotta fold that tonight. Sip cold brew, do a little work on your day off. Take solace …
Firm or Harsh?
I find myself periodically in this space. I’m wrangling to keep my kids on task during the crunch time of work/day evenings. We’re working to stay on schedule to meet a goal, in this case lights out in time for a good night’s sleep. As they seem to wander to and fro, distracted, my guiding …
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