Week-end Struggle

Weird to think, struggle on the weekend,

Fun and games and care-free ways give way to toil and trouble, bubble bubble,

As Sunday night settles in, angst and worry, aches and pains, imagined, real, pour in through the cracks and splits,

Lava creeping, melting, molding all to worry, can’t control, overwhelmed, just what we don’t want as Weekend recedes,

But is what is, we feel what we feel, and that’s all we can respond to, adjust to, you , me,

Us all, same boat, let’s row together as best we can, into the night, week, day ahead, look forward, rest,

The dawn will come soon enough, soon enough.

Early Morning Overdrive

Early morning workdays, they seem to start like this most days. Overdrive. Zero to sixty in no time.

My mind goes from dreamy rest to racing thoughts, flashing across my mind’s eye.

List accelerating, things, tasks to-do’s adding to the bottom and the list gets long in a hurry. Quickly spiraling, my heart beat quickens, can’t be good to think this fast this quick.

In the pre-dawn darkness, I work to slow it down, the race into the day, the pace someone, no one is expecting, I take deep breaths, I scribble it all down, eyes blurred, unsure of how it all will go.

Forcing myself to slow, let it all flow through, the Prime Reminder, let love flow through, the Prime Mover, purpose, and take it as it comes, as the day is underway, workday, the way it begins many a day,

For me.

#halffullallgood

Diner 2541

Sometimes it’s like my house is a diner; sometimes the dining table is like one at a diner.

But the wait staff at this diner (me/dad) doesn’t do a great job of cleaning up between meals served.

Crumbs on the table, and under; not swept in a while; place mats left out, askew.

The Good News? Will try again today to keep it a bit more tidy.

#halffullallgood

“Love Never Fails”

This Good Friday, I feel pretty far from the usual church ideas and rituals around celebrating this day.

For us Christians, today is one of the most important days of the year, when we remember the execution of Jesus of Nazareth.

The darkest day gives way to the brightest, a couple days following.

It feels distant to me this year, the rituals of the day. All the same, I’ll remember his suffering and death; I’ll remember his courage, and resolve.

And I’ll remember his love.

Easing Back, Back to Front, No Grind

After two weeks healing myself and my girls up from COVID, I’m logging back on to work life. Not on-site just yet; gotta solve this cough problem.

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Back to front? It basically means, my intent to start work again with a fresh, healthier, balanced approach, retaining my sense of self and priority.

My goal? Give the full measure, but not lose myself along the way.

My work is important to our group and the company, but I can only do my best each day, respond to the inevitable ups and downs,

And that’s it.

Goal to give my best, but not my soul, no slave to the grind.

Giddy up.

Got COVID?

After 24 months,

2 vaccines,

1 booster,

Maybe 100 masks (I’ve worn washable / reusable until several months ago),

I turned up positive for COVID – 19. Tested twice, just to be sure. Well, it was bound to happen.

I’m in good company though; Jungkook of K-Pop Boy Band BTS also announced he just tested positive.

Now I join the 79.9 million number of Americans and 482 million number of humans globally in recorded cases.

Thankfully, it’s a mild/moderate case; I’m not hospitalized. I am tho’ in the midst of 10-day isolation/quarantine.

Condition? Achy, congested, cough and tight chest, foggy brain.

Response? Hydrate, read, sleep, repeat.

Upside? It took two years. And now I’ve got four doses building my immunity to go forward.

Awash

I can’t really explain it very well. I feel like there’s a LOT going on…

That in some (many?) cases I have to let things fall away…

And sometimes in quite messy form, unfortunately,

And yet I think I’m keeping the main priorities squared away, plates in the air,

And then I wake up, mind spooling up quickly like a turbine,

And I’m awash with anxiety,

In the dark,

At 2 am.

Just saying, just sharing,

Because that’s my way.

And ever more I will go forward,

With the downs and the ups,

The Good and the not so good,

Awash unexpectedly,

But forward all the same.

Come, join me~~~

Pi Day, Redux

Whoops! I let Pi Day almost slip by without comment…ALMOST, that is…

3/14 or “3.14”, what some refer to as Pi Day. One of my neighbors was a Math & Physics major in college…

And a few years back she and her wife hosted a Pi Day Party at their house —it was a mix of friends and generously, they also invited my parents, who lived here in town too.

My dad was a Math and Economics major in college, and High School Math Teacher for decades, so he seemed to get a little extra joy from the theme of the gathering too.

My brother and his wife were there too. Our family, various friends of the hosts.

It was fun.

It was also one of the last “public events” I remember my folks attending before my dad had a stroke at the end of that year, and everything changed.

So a little nod to Pi Day just passed, nod to my dad once again – Math Guy, GREAT Dad – and a little encouragement to all y’all out there to find things and reasons to get together with the people you love and celebrate whatever…celebrate life!,

You never know when it is going to change. So make the most of right now.

Oh, and more on Pi Day? HERE ~~~

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pi_Day?wprov=sfti1

Two Minutes

A lot can happen in two minutes…make the most of it.

Two minutes is the duration of a round in a high school wrestling match.

Sometimes a football offensive team can score a touchdown in two minutes (or less).

Two minutes is a good buffer for winding something down,

like playtime for kids, or finishing a piece of work, or leaving for a trip, or getting ready for dinner.

Take two minutes to pause for yourself, rinse the dinner dishes, reset after an intense effort.

It’s just two minutes. Make the most of it.

Fellowship

With your peeps, that’s when you likely most often experience fellowship.

Your team, your particularly tight work group, high school bunch, college crew, church regulars, you get the idea.

When you experience fellowship with people you just only met? That fellowship?

Well that’s a little different special; that’s a little bit of special magic. And then?

Then you say you’re double blessed.